mindfield

This week didn't start out well and most things went downhill since.

Not that I usually was full with enthusiasm to the brim but this week, not only that I wasn't looking forward to teaching - I was also spiritless.

I've seen problems looming at the horizon late last week (wow, that made me sound like a phsycic!), but I chose to ignore it.
Sure wished I'd been wiser.

Got only one thing to say, I hate being beautiful! Hahaha. OK., maybe just someone who people consider attractive. Sometimes I wished only to be left alone.
This thing called romance is indeed a delicate matter and I intensely hate it when things get complicated with someone I have to see everyday. At the very least, it'll be super awkward.

Jesus, this kinda thing gets to my nerve. And what make it even more impossible is the fact that nothing even started yet! The guy hasn't even said anything - it's the rumour that had already starting which later got back to me.
Christ. And I thought it best to play dumb. Apparently not. Maybe I should just stay the cold, unfriendly gal that I used to be.

Back to professional matter, my performance had dropped too. Sigh. It was so nice interacting with higher level students that sometime I lost sight of what the lower levels' students needed.
I took the fact rather badly. That's failure, man. What good am I if my students didn't get what I was teaching?

And it happened right when I was scheduled to be observed by the principal. I knew that things had gone wrong, albeit slightly, by the look in his face. And I was so afraid I was going to be scolded that I hesitated before entering his room afterward - while all he wanted was to ask me to subtitute an absent teacher! Stupid me.

For additional lament, the cutest of my students didn't show up today! Hahaha. But those guys from Intermediate 2 Level are indeed the rowdiest and the most fun. What with the likes of Ardian, Annisa, Tina 1 and Tina 2, Shella, Reza... my, they're the grown-up version of my former YAC 3.

Anyway, just to have a little fun, I'm listing down 15 things about me with 5 lies lying within. (Originally, I saw this at DeeDee's place)
1. I love dogs.
2. I hate ice cream.
3. I haven't got Casillas' poster.
4. I first started dating in elementary school.
5. I used to have an Indian boyfriend.
6. I speak Spanish fluently.
7. I'm good at calligraphy.
8. I'm color blind.
9. I've got brown eyes.
10. As a child, I fell all the way down the stairs, twice.
11. I hate vegetable but love broccoli.
12. I've got Portuguese blood.
13. I read newspaper everyday.
14. I've always wanted to be a teacher.
15. I drink tea more than water.

Try and guess which are the lies, fellas! Tell me what you think!